hi. i am a cool guy. you are too, i hope.
I have some friends here.
@Cherries_ is cool.
help.
also my pronouns n stuff is here: https://en.pronouns.page/@Voixer
so uh...
daily update- i fucking hate myself
long story short, i wanted to get
something off of target delivery with the gift cards that have been rotting in my little coin compartment for years now.
they don't work.
i don't know why, it's just... impossible.
i felt the urge to just want to end it all (if y'know what i mean by that hehe) , and now i just feel like... why? my emotions just spiral from the most random things. i already had the thing i needed, i just wanted another pair of them. but it hurts so much when it doesn't work and it isn't my fault. it's something like this...
STEP 1: Get angry something miniscule doesn't work
STEP 2: Get angry at yourself for getting angry at the small thing
STEP 3: Get angry at yourself for teasing yourself over getting angry over something small
STEP 4: Go to your room and cry quietly until your emotions are placed in a nice little jar (or a bottle, if you will) and don't worry about them for the rest of the day
Like guys I think something is wrong with me. Why am I like this... it feels like everything in my life goes wrong at the most important moments. What a funny april fool.
Wait, it isn't April?
Fuck.
i'm eepy.
i was gonna order online some... accessories i need for later but mehhhh... i keep putting it off
i wanna order it so that it comes on the weekend after my mom is gone. she's okay with me buying stuff with the target and Amazon gift cards i have (i can never bring myself to use those) but what i wanna get is supposed to be a secret... that she'll never know.... ooooooh i wonder what it is
also i just watched a voice acted version of a comic series on webtoon or whatever it's called
i would rather just support the source material since my headcanons for the voices of the characters are strong enough to not need to listen to that, but... let's just say in the past when i've played a mobile game or watched YouTube i've seen some silly little advertisements about uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
some.... stuff
so no, i'm never going to go there. i have trauma from that website
(i think the main character... she used to be
i feel so tired rn..
idk why but i don't feel very wonderhoy right now
i want to get started on the art i'm doing, but usually i start making art on a deadline or from a rush of confidence and commitment
i can't just randomly sit down, get on my laptop and say "fuck it, imma draw gingerbrave" or something
this is probably because of my bad sleep. (I slept really well but awoke super exhausted.) i suppose i gotta get good sleep so i feel more motivated to make what i gotta make