No more being forced to do shit im not good at, none of it! Just a peaceful life in heaven is what I want. But I don't wanna upset my dad, I love him. He's the only reason I'm still going on with this, all his presents, his support, is why I'm here. And you guys too, you all mean the world to me. But her? She can go rot in hell for all I care, I want her gone. And her STUPID little husband too! My step-dad is no where near as close to her, he's worse. He WATCHES us get yelled at, he doesn't CARE. And what does he do afterwards, if you guessed "yell at my mom" you'd be so fucking incorrect if I was kidding around with this I'd be laughing in your fucking face! He tells me or my brother that we "deserved it." And if he feels kind enough, "just stop crying then." oh but not to me, I don't cry because if I do this shit will get worse. He says it to my brother, how fucking shitty is that?! (3/3)
Call the police or something just get me out of this fucking HELL HOLE of a "house" because I genuinely might just fucking kill myself soon! :( her yelling, her complaining it's driving me NUTS and I hate it I HATE IT SO FUCKING MUCH! I've had thoughts of calling the police myself, HELL, i've even given massive hints to my guidance counselor that I'm getting abused but she doesn't seem to get it. I've tried telling my teachers, but did it work? OBVIOUSLY NOT because look where I am right now! My room, on the verge of tears writing this rant of my stupid little mom! I could be living with my dad if she hadn't been spitting out such LIES about how she isn't hurting me! I just want to run away, but who will she get involved? The fucking police!! And they won't listen to me when they find me! And when they take me home my mom's gonna yell at me some more! I hate existing and I wish I could just suddenly die in my fucking sleep! No more being forced to do shit im not good at. (2/3)
my MOM is the most horrible human being on this fucking earth with all her little threats and shit. I'm not even sure if I can call her human atp. All that she ever does to me and my brother is hurt us, Physically (mostly) and Mentally. It's not fucking funny anymore man. I can't go another day without having to listen to her go "mmhm" or "okay" anymore, she doesn't care for what me or my brother say. And I wish I didn't have to care for what she says, but I'm just a stupid little 15 year old who can't do anything for himself, duhh!!! BUT I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!! I REALLY CANT!! I JUST WANNA FUCKING GET RID OF HER, ERASE HER FROM MY LIFE!! But can I? No. Nonononononono!! :DD I have to SIT and do absolutely NOTHING while she yells at me. All these threats, all this fucking abuse and everything else she does is hurting me so bad, but what can I do? Sit and Stare, Act like I fucking CARE when I really DONT. Somebody fucking help me PLEASE I genuinely cannot take this anymore! (1/3)
I'm sorry I can't do things on time
I'm sorry I can't be like other people
I'm sorry I mess everything up
I'm sorry I can't be as smart as everyone else
I'm sorry I can't be as perfect as you want me to be
I'm sorry I don't always get things quickly as others
but it's not my fault.
So please stop treating me like everything is my fault.
You're always getting mad at all the little things I do
You never help me
You don't want me around
I might as well leave
Forever
And never come back.
Thats what you want, isn't it?
You hate me
Everyone hates me
I'm annoying
And I'm sorry.
/ aim